retrospect

so it's over and done with. exams are done, papers are turned in, we have a farewell dinner tonight in the albaycin. i wasn't expecting this day to come.


it's weird...

and i find myself getting a bit blurry eyed, a little nostalgic.


it's funny. i look at the calendar and it says it's may 18.


may 18.


no. no. that's wrong. it's january 4th. i'm just stepping off a plane, scared and nervous and excited. fresh from celebrating new year's too hard.


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you do a lot of retrospect these last few days. you wonder where the time went and what happened these past few months. it's like that reaction you have when you get off a roller coaster-you step onto the ground and have to think for a minute about the ride you just took, to make sure it really happened because it went by so fast.

well, my feet just hit the ground and i'm thinking about the ride--it was amazing.

it took me to parts of the world i had only read and learned about in school. places that you see on tv but never really imagine that you are going to one day be there in person seeing it with your own eyes. i learned so much, ate so much, did so much.


but it's over.


that's the thing. you wish for this day to come but then when it does, you kinda wish it wasn't here.

the bus for barcelona leaves on saturday at 15:45 and i'll be on it. i'm excited to see my aunt. then i go to rome. then i go back to barcelona. then i go home. (hey, that rhymes :)


yep. i've been thinking about this day for a while now, but somehow i didn't expect it to come.